Assalamulaikum dan selamat petang
semua.
Last week I got two sad news, it
broke my heart to piece if i'm being honest. Still remember the cuddle buddy i
told in previous post? It turns out last week dia in relationship with some
girl and ask me about it. On the same night, he still spend the night in my
room and I said to myself maybe this is the last hug i would get. It just so
sad, bila i put my face on his chest my mata dah berair and i said this is
last,please kuatkan semangat. Dia just gosok my kepala( maybe without clue what happen). After that
night, dia macam notice mcm aku dah start jauhkan diri and aku macam banyak
diamkan diri. Itulah apa yang aku selalu buat, when i like someone and afraid
aku just jauhkan diri. Bila dia ajak hangout, aku ditch sebab bagi aku, aku tak
nak bila develops feeling yang dalam nanti aku tak boleh nak let go and in the
end aku sendiri yang sakit.
After that, the next day I got
news my so not ex-girlfriend dah bertunang. It broke my heart to piece because
it hurt so bad. We separate in a good ways before this. I still care about her
and if anyone ask yes I still love her. When bila dia ada problems with her fiancΓ©e
memang kadang-kadang macam nak hasut dia supaya break but aku fikir balik untuk
apa aku buat semua benda tu?Aku bukan macam tu. Aku tak nak jadi macam tu. Dulu
aku pernah ckp aku yang despise people yg tak ada dishonesty dalam relationship
so why aku nak buat benda sama?Then, went to my bestfriend and i said can i have a hug, i could use hug.
It have been rough week,
hopefully dapat sleep well ease the pain slowly. :')
